Upset

The feeling is stronger than ever that I am still a humble man. The truth is that I am from lower class from the day I was born. I don't think I can change my fate in the future. Every time when I launch a new plan on my life, I always meet the trend stone. I just want to be a normal man, and have chance to enhance my English and have time to play football. I want to change my economic situation from hard working, but I can not earn much more from my contribution. I am mess that there is no way to get well pay beside the Government job?

I can't get a simple identity. Sometime i am an author, people treat me as I am a famous guy; more time I am a photographer, some ass hole treat me as a cheap worker. I get one salary but I get multi tasks and heavy jobs at the same time. If I get no pay with a job which was respectable, I feel no problem because I find my fame. If I get little pay with humble job, I think it is the great indignity to my intelligence and my family and my pets.

People always ask me where I am working for, I can not give a satisfied answer because I can not complicatedly describe my job. I hope some day I can explain what I am doing with less than three words. Now, escaping is impossible mission this time, but I still want to be lightness. No stress, no misunderstand and no underestimate. Because some people knowing I am writing blog, so I will write in English when I am talking my soul. Even if the English is broken, I can just keep a memory to myself and people will hard to translate from Google because it will make the meaning more and more difficult to learn.